i only just missed getting an appointment at the hospital today . there were two left but i didn't click on time, because i didn't know what day of the week it was . my tooth is really beginning to bother me . i need a root canal . i've studied ahead of time -- 疼、根管治疗、麻、maybe 麻醉……？ i don't know . a few weeks ago, when i was in guangzhou, i went to the hospital about a stye, and because i didn't really know what the doctor was telling me, ended up having her lay me down, turn my eyelid inside out, and slice it open . i kept telling her it hurt a lot, and she'd just reply, 'it hurts a little' . i didn't even know what she had done until i took a photo of the bill, put the image into google translated, and then again into claude chat
i have a three minute oral exam tomorrow, as part of my chinese mideterm, but i haven't finished writing the speech for it yet, nor begun to memorise it . i have instead been reading articles on my computer . i read about walter ong, and what was going on in donbas fifteen to ten years ago, and scrolled up and down some papers about several other subjects . i read a bit about illiteracy, and how people can't read anymore, not because they don't know what the words are, but because they don't really know what they mean, and how i am afraid i am in this camp, because i only read a few books a year nowadays . i am afraid my english is getting worse, but my chinese is also not getting much better . i hope i will be cured of this once i return to london .